I like to think that our love story started before we ever actually met, its like we were meant to find each other.
Its pretty crazy to think neither of us started off here in Canada, you in Mexico, & I in England. For both our families to end up here in Summerland, could it be coincidence, could it be fate?
Kismet ..
I will always stand by this when I say, that when I saw you for the very first time, I knew there was something about you. I didn't know if it was just because you made me weak at the knees, or because my heart was beating faster than ever before, or could it have been the uncontrollable butterflies in my tummy? I guess a part of me just knew, we were simply meant to be <3
We were too young to be looking for love. But it happened. The man who won my heart at sixteen will always have it.
To be or not to be?
I was nothing short of a crumbling fool the night I told you I was pregnant, & keeping it. I never thought you would change my life like that. My heart held so much love for you but suddenly I had someone else, someone so precious to protect & love, I wondered to myself if we would get through it together. So suddenly our young love had come to an end.
When our son came blazing into our lives, I fell in love with you all over again. It was such an amazing feeling to know what love at first sight truly felt like, & then to look at you, the man who gave him to me & feel even more love than I've ever felt before.
<3
This journey we are on together hasn't always been easy. But what I know today, it is worth it, it is better to face it together. Our relationship is strong in tough times as well as happy times.
I said YES!
" Jessica .. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I love you, more than you'll ever know. Will you marry me? "
I remember feeling sublimely happy! Never in my life had I been more optimistic, happier, more hopeful for our future, or felt more beautiful. It was perfect. I am marrying my best friend, my lover, my baby daddy (; my everything rolled into one <3 YOU.
To have & to hold.
Right now, the only thing that I'm really sure about .. is that I love you, & nothing would make me happier than spending the rest of my life with you, Larry.
I look forward to the day I'm old & grey with you & we're RV'ing round Canada together, making the most of every moment. & when that is all too much, we will rock in our chairs, side by side, hand in hand, till the very end.
If you jump, I jump, remember?
You know I don't have a religious bone in my body, but I do believe that when we are gone we will meet again, in our special place, in our prime & my heart will go on <3.
Larry, be my Valentine?
I honestly don't even know where to start .. This year has been full of its fair share of ups & downs, so much so my mind is always on overload! I am such an emotional person so every day is a roller-coaster for me, I can be the luckiest girl in the world, so grateful for what I do have, or life can be so completely unfair, nothing going my way.
Anyway, I always like to start with the worst, & to end on a positive note, so here are some events from 2012 that stand out for me, worst to best, my achievements & goals ..
Worst;
This past June we found out that our precious dog Lady had cancer, & our time with her ran short, just one week later she passed away, on Fathers Day, leaving our whole family heavy hearted & totally lost without her. Five days later I went for surgery for the first time, scared out of my mind, saying goodbye to my boys before putting me under. The last thing I remember before drifting into a deep sleep was asking Lady to keep me safe & help me get through it. When I awoke I was all choked up with tears of joy & sorrow. I wish I could say my surgery was a success but I don't believe that to be true. I keep my head up for my family, & hope to be proven wrong one day.
Best;
The year started out great for my fiance & I, in January we set a date to be married 08.06.13! It has been so exciting to plan our wedding this year, trying to get everything perfect for our special day in 2013. We had our engagement photos done in April by Justine Russo Photography, & she really captured the love between the two of us <3 Also in April, Larry started working full time after his last college exam! He jumped straight into work at Penticton Toyota as a Product Advisor & in Financial Services. He has done so incredibly well working there, Toyota Canada has called him up to thank him for his hard work more than several times! To add to all Larry's achievements this year, he graduated from the Okanagan College in June with his Bachelors Degree in Business, specializing in Finance. No words can express how proud I am of him, he has worked so hard & deserves the best.
Aaden started pre-school this year, he loves it & loves to shows off his character like a true star. It was truly one of my proud mommy moments, seeing him coming home & repeating all the new things he has learnt. Being with him is the best part of every day, & when his daddy comes home everything is complete.
In October, we got a tiny little kitten, who we named Liddy. We all love having her be a part of our family, our first family pet <3
Lastly, my Mummy passed on to me my Great Nana's wedding ring, a 22 carat gold band, that is over 75 years old. Larry had it sized for my finger this Christmas, a year after him getting down on one knee. I cant wait to have the honor of wearing such a great woman's ring on my finger & have the love of my life slide it onto the forth finger of my left hand.
Achievements;
I started my own photography business this year, I have enjoyed every single photo shoot I have shot. I have gained many great friends from it too. My Facebook page has over 5,000 likes! After taking some time off this winter to get on top of the wedding planning, I am eager to jump back into work in the new year.
My son of course is always my greatest achievement, this year I witnessed another huge change of my baby boy going from a toddler to a boy, a school boy!
Its still a gradual thing, probably something I will have to keep working on for the rest of my life, but losing weight has to be an achievement for me. I usually always give up, but not this time. I have a gorgeous wedding dress to fit, a family I want to live a long life for. I also have an incredible support system, a fiance who is always saying I'm beautiful, no matter what. & a son who is the greatest workout dance partner ever, lol! & the rest of our families keeping me on the right track (:
Goals, for 2013;
- Continue to lose weight.
- Write my own vows.
- Enjoy our honeymoon.
- Have another baby on the way.
- Build up my business.
- New home.
2012, well its been interesting, but overall I think this year has made me a stronger person .. but oh boy, I cant wait for what 2013 has in store! Its going to be absolutely awesome for my little family, with lots of big positive changes!
Watch this space (;
HAPPY NEW YEAR!! Stay Safe x
Well I don't really know where to start to be honest. I created this blog to write down things that are going on in my life, good & bad, happy & sad. So far my life hasn't been very much of a smooth ride. I was born in England, single parent family, my Dad was around but not as much as I needed I guess. I have always found it hard to make friends, Im quite shy but once I know you, Im fine LOL. Was bullied through out school, I don't know why? I wasn't different, just your normal girl, I didn't get into trouble or do drugs, maybe I wasn't "cool" enough for those around me. I moved to Canada at 15 turning 16 & I hated it to begin with. For some reason I missed the so-called friends back home & the boyfriend I had at the time who really was a waste of space. I still remember my first day at my new school & my first ever math class when this 'tall, dark & handsome LOL' guy walked into the room & for some reason I knew there was something about him but I couldn't put my finger on what it was. Well what do you know, that guy changed my world f o r e v e r ! It wasn't the best relationship to begin with, I don't even think we ever had that honeymoon period most people experience, but I was in love, 16 & in love still sounds crazy now, like I should call it puppy love haha. At 17 our relationship hit a bump (literally) when I found out I was 4 weeks pregnant just before our 1 year anniversary .. it was a huge shock, not planned, just failed birth control. I didn't ever think I would be in that situation, I took the pill everyday at the same time but my doctor then tells me once pregnant that it was the weakest form /: Hard to get used at first, I think because when your first pregnant there is no way of telling, no bump, no feeling it move - no stamp on your fore head saying "Im pregnant" but .. when I went to have an ultra sound done at 6 weeks, a day I will never in my life forget, there on the screen was just this circle looking thing with a heart beat & I knew from that moment I was completely in love. Well anyway - it was a great pregnancy but my son decided to make an early entrance to the world - born 8 weeks early 4lbs 1Ooz, he was so small & so perfect. It was hard at first not being able to take him home straight away but when I did I was in heaven. I thought it would be a lot harder to be a mother, young one at that, but I have loved every minute of it. Some people say they were born to be an artist or doctor (something like that) I was born to be a mother. No Im not glamorizing being a teen mom, it is different for everyone, but I love my son & I want nothing more than to spend each & every day with him. His daddy & I are still together & have our 4th anniversary coming up ! My life sucked till they came along & now I look forward to the future (: Im still lacking in the friends department, none seem to stick around or have time for someone with a child but what I do have is more than a handful true online mom friends that have stuck by me through everything, who we share all our experiences with (love you guys) & an amazing family who has supported me through everything & never told me I couldn't do it. Thats all I have to say about that .. TTFN xx
